Love cannot be lost

Love cannot be lost
When found, it stays forever
It clings like a leech
And refuses to let go
Whether it is worth it or not
For pain or joy

Love cannot be lost
Over distances it follows you
Over decades it stays with you
That song, that scent, that date
All remind you of the love

Love cannot be lost
It could be misplaced
Maybe forgotten for a while
Circumstances change your love
And sometimes life gets in the way
Time will reunite your heart with love
For love cannot be lost

Let me hold you

Ive been thinking about you
And all I would like to do
If you are faint hearted...stop
You see, since I met you
My temperature has risen
I am sure it is not the flu
Or the sun...
I am convinced it is from within
I would like to pretend it is my wild imagination
That my heart doesn't skip a beat
At your voice, name, presence and my thoughts of you
Please do not get me wrong
I am not one of those girls
I am thee girl who thinks of  you constantly
Hoping one day you will take the lead
For all girls love to be hunted
I have seen the future
Or maybe imagined it
Please, please do not disappoint me
Would you play your role as Ive imagined it?
Could you look my way again
Tell me about your life
Especially your frustrations
So I can help soothe them
Am I, am I one step ahead?
Or do you have a better plan for us
Oops...did I say us?
I am counting the days
To the day you will hold me
And let me hold you

Ta,
Budgie

If you could see my heart

If you could see my heart
It is green like a lawn
Lush like a rain forest
All beings roam free with grace
Wealth is plenty for all
Peace surrounds life

If you could see my heart
You would know that it rains
With thunder and lightening
Winds blow in all directions
Stealing the peace
But knowing sunshine follows thereafter

If you could see my heart
You wouldn't believe
The strength I posses
The love I have to give
And the room I have for love

If you could see my heart
You would understand the smile on my face
The frown when it storms
The strength I have to press forward
And you would understand
That I am all woman

Ta,
Budgie

Girls are pretty

Girls are pretty
They shine like gems
They giggle when tickled
And glow when happy
They are soft like chiffon

Girls are strong
Some girls can bake cupcakes
Others can sew tu-tus
Some girls can solve long sums
While others defend in uniforms

Girls are treasures
They are raised to love and nurture
They forgive and most times forget
They accept and appreciate
Loyalty and Love flows in their veins

Girls are dreamers
They believe in fairies and unicorns
Stare at stars and the moon
They want flowers and chocolates
Oh a gentlemen to hold on to
And 'lived happily ever after' at the end of the book

Girls are pretty
With teeth like pearls
Hair like cotton candy
Scented like fresh blooms
Brains to make or break
And hearts to love forever

Ta,
Budgie
For all the little girls I know!

letting go

They say letting go is good for you
But they forgot how difficult it is
I guess the writer was a survivor
And when you are on the other side
You think you can do what you knew you couldn't do then
It could be a sudden loss or expected
Your heart is just never prepared
Sometimes it seems your heart holds on
Even when your brain has moved on
It hits like lightening
Suddenly your chest contracts
It all feels so real so now and so wrenching
For a brief moment the world is dark
Nothing absolutely everything means nothing
Except for the combination of memories and ache
Your only friend is time
For time apparently heals all wounds
But this theory is only proven to the dead
In this one minute experience
Your brain runs slides of years of history
And allows you one more step into the future
For pain is there to strengthen you
The only price it asks
Is for you to let it go

Ta,
Budgie

My love

What a surprise it is
To meet a person like you
You opened the door for me
You pulled the chair for me
So mannered and surprising
I would like to have all conversations with you
I would like to have tea with you...or coffee
I would like to read the Sunday paper with you
I would like to listen to the rain with you
Then maybe we could fall asleep together
Do you think you could remember my birthday?
Or maybe the day we met...every month?
Would you please make a fuss about Valentine's day?
Red, yes that is my favourite colour
And ice cream brings a smile to my face
Like a wounded lion I defend before I appreciate
You look like an angel
But the fear in me blurs your beauty
Oh how I would love to love you
And trust to fall with you
And maybe I could call you my lover
You can call me everyday
Imagine if this were all true
And after all this is done
It still felt like the day we met

Ta
Budgie

Ke kgarebe ya Mapulaneng(with English translation)

Ke kgarebe ya Mapulaneng
Ba go tlala bare ke ying so sone naa?
Ke tshware ke stress
Ba tho ba modimo...a le tjibi Mapulana
Ka ba ka dula fase
Ka gore story se, ke se se telele
Ke morwediya wa Mashile
Mashile a gatisha, minna tau
Mashile wa di thaba tja Graskop
Kgoshi Maripi(pe) Mashile
Mogatja wa Mogoladikwe, Magabolle le Maseroto
Ba ga gesho ke Mashego, Chiloane le Malele
Ba yagishane ke Mogane, Nonyane, Mokoena...Mapulana kamoka
Gaye re ya lema mashemo
Bashemanyana ba gapa dikgomo
Le komeng re ya ya ka marega
Re bolabola sona se-pulana
E, se nyakiye go tshwana le Sepedi
Mara hayi sepedi...botsisa Mapedi ba tlo go botseng
Batho ba gesho ba dula Mapulaneng (Bushbuckridge)
Kgoshi lenyaga ke Mashego
Ba ata ba ya le Mashishing
Le kgono ke re o ba kereya Petori, Tembisa joh gape ba sepela maan
Rune re ja nama...ka bushwa
Re apega dithlako tsa dinawa le dimaka
Re gasha mabele, marope, dithoke, mangoze, makotapeni, moba, eyi ditlele
Re dumedisa re-re Tamaneng, Age Lekaye Naa
Ra ba ra layela ka Sepulana re re Salaneng ga botjie

Translation

I am the daugher of Mapulaneng
Many ask what that is
I get stressed
For goodness sake...you dont now Mapulana?
I sit down
For this story is long
I am Mashile's daughter
Mashile a gatisha, minna Tau
Mashile from the Graskop mountains
King Maripi(pe) Mashile
Husband to Mogoladikwe, Magabolle and Maseroto
Our tribe includes Mashego, Chiloane and Malele
Our neighbours include Mogane, Nonyane, Mokoena...all the Mapulana
We are farmers
Boys are herders
We attend initiation school in winter
We speak Sepulana
Yes its almost like Sepedi
But it is not...ask the Pedi's they will tell you *laughs*
My people live in Mapulaneng (Bushbuckridge)
Our king is Mashego
You find us in Lydenburg too
Today you find them in Pretoria, Tembisa...
We eat meat...and pap
We cook samp with beans and peanuts
We plant mealies, african potato, wild spinach, mangoes, avocados. sugarcane and more
We greet with Tamaneng, Age Lekaye Naa
And leave with Salaneng ga botjie

*Please note translation may be incorrect; Sepulana is not documented hence has no right way of writing it.  This is also the most loose and current version of it*

Ta,
Budgie

Free my heart

Dear past, free my heart
I am too blessed and gifted to dwell on you
There is abundance in front of me
Future promises to make me smile
Everyday I wake to another opportunity
To make better decisions
To love and accept love
The universe presents gifts daily
He sent me angels to make it better
They who support and help me
Listen...mind is talking to you
Like the comrades he is fighting for my heart
To be freed from your agonizing clutches
For you to pack, wave and leave
For you to see reason and sense
Why do you hold on?
Is it...is it to remind me of where I come from
Then please visit me once in three-hundred-and-fifty-six-days
Preferably on day one
Or is it your jealousy on future
For I must say he is quite dashing from where I stand
And honest as he is clear about himself
You see your lease is up
I simply cannot accommodate you anymore
Not in my heart; not in my mind and never in my soul
Not even in my twenty-four hour day
Your time is over
You, your friends guilt, pain and depression
So free my heart

Ta,
Budgie

God

They will ask why I smile
How I made it to the top
How I survived the pain and struggle
I will tell them it is God

They will wonder who gave it to me
Who blessed me abundantly
Who took my sorrow for joy
Who said YES to all my dreams
I will tell them it is God

They will ask how I walked in the dark
Was I not fearful to stand?
Did I not worry about the danger?
And all the obstacles in my way
I will tell them it is God

They will ask for my advise
On how to prosper and smile
How to find love, peace and happiness
And I will tell them again
It is God

Budgie

He

He who commands without demanding
He respects and is respected
He says I love you through his deeds
And just to assure you he whispers it in your ear
He who knows what you need
And provides it before you ask
He who defends you
Especially when you see a spider
He who kisses your forehead to welcome sunrise
He who walks away to let you cool down
And apologises for doing it
He who admires your physique
But is in love with your heart
He who oozes passion
And you glow with satisfaction
He who shows  you off
And will kill any peeping Tom
He who knows you are not  his mother
And his mother can never be you
He who has the guts to meet your father
And keeps his promise to your mother to cherish YOU
He who allows you to reach  your highest potential
And he lives to his
He who stays home with  you
Just because you don't feel well
He who you know you can trust
And you want to be the best for him
He who you know you want
He who you know you need
He who you know is top of God's range

Budgie

to be today

Today is tomorrow's yesterday and yesterday's tomorrow
Only today exists
What was is history today
And what is to be is only a possibility

Some people spend time on yesterday
Holding on to what was and will never return
Allowing yesterday to dampen today and possibily tomorrow
Wasting time on statues that cannot be moved but only destroyed
Allowing emotions and time to time lost

Some people devote today to tomorrow
Wondering about what has not arrived
Worrying about a probability
Investing time in non factual thoughts
Giving energy into a tomorrow they cannot control

But what is life yesterday and tomorrow
Life starts at sunrise and ends at sunset
Tomorrow is a gift yet to be unwrapped
Yesterday is gone forgotten
Today is what is

Budgie

what do you know about pain

What do you know about pain?

Raised to nurture but not nurtured

Ridiculed for being different

Violated

Just because he had a selfish need to fulfil

What do you know about pain?

He promised

And never followed through

I loved him, and swallowed love

Apparently the feeling was mutual

But somehow I never felt appreciated

What do you know about pain?

I’ve had my hair pulled since age three

All in the name of beauty

Plucked, waxed, injected and rejected

All to belong and to be accepted

What do you know about pain?

Have you been on the receiving end of a slap?

Or wondered what he was thinking

Or better yet where he is, where he was and where he is going

And Oh Lord the wait for that ring

What do you know about pain?

Listened to mommy and remained pure

Just to be spoiled by one experience

And he left me with the consequences

Stitches, labor, epidural, breast feeding and weight

Then the universe sent a disease for comic relief

What do you know about pain?

No you don’t understand

You will never get it

And I never wish any of it on you

Even if you are the cause of it all

What do you know about pain?

Budgie