He saved me

In my state as I lie here
I've felt plain for hours
I imagine myself looking at myself
In the state I'm in
Gash across hairline on my bald patch
Dry skin from my days of blessings
But coloured toes and fingers
Atleast 5kg lighter than my birthday
I love me
And I will not allow hate to enter
My body is not tall or size 30
I am short like mama
Rounded bottoms from grandma
Plus my clinched waist from her too
Hands as glorious as feet
Scarred skin keeping my life's memories
I thank the Lord
He saved me.
To be here, To see this day.
Tomorrow is still a huge question?
What is my purpose today and tomorrow?
My head intact, My heart intact and my smile here
I pray every morning
I thank for life and ask for the light
One day i will know, it will make sense
Today will be explained by my yesterday's
My anxiety will finally end
My plan will meet his plan
Again i will be thankful that
He saved me.

This Dream

This dream I have been given
Haunts me day and night
For the longest time Ive come to know
It feeds on my happiness and sadness
But yet also feeds my happiness and sadness
This dream I feel in my vessels
Defines my behaviour daily
Relates me to those with me
Leads to to my promised land
And removes me from my comfort
This dream I know in my heart
Has created storms where there were none
Has brought calm in the storms
Separates me from those I thought I loved
And connects me to those I'm meant to love
This dream that lives in me
Refuses to die, to leave, to diminish
It demands fulfillment at all costs
It is selfish of my wants
It dares challenge what Ive come to know
And offers what I can only imagine
This dream that is mine
Clings to my back with claws so deep
Forcing me to turn and face it
Begging me to create it
Asking me to live to my full potential
Telling me to let go and let be
Saying ‘Live your life’