Dear Child

I know. Its tough. It sucks.  Why do you hate your life? Your job? Why don't they understand you? Why don't all your relationships not work? I mean really I should be happy.  But you are not. You followed the rules. Creche. Grade 1 -12. University. Honours. Job. Marriage. Kids. Blah blah blah blah blah. Sigh.  Today you have the husband/wife, car, house and the child. But somehow it doesn't add up. 1+1 = 1.5 and not 2.

Do you know yourself? No not the person you were raised to be. Not the one you were trained to be.  Not the one you were threatened to be or else.  Who are you? What do you want? Why are you here? In the bigger picture are you seriously doing anything to alter life or the world? Better yet the universe.  In your entire 24 hour day do you do something that serves anything? Or anyone? Or best yourself? I mean what is you functionality though?  Why are you taking oxygen?

Many people are a result of what they saw, learned, experienced and fear.  Most of the time the things that create peoples minds are what they believe they've forgotten.  You know that day when your mom hit you so hard for not washing the dishes? You over it right? But when someone screams at you with that exact same intensity, that experience flashes back? Why? Hmmm and have you dealt with it?  Is that why you are so anxious about not washing the dishes before you go to bed?

If you sit back and evaluate your actions you will read a pattern; a pattern created by experiences from your own life. There is a specific way you treat others, yourself and situations everyday.  Then you decide that your personality is introvert, extrovert, short tempered, impatient, kind, loyal, etc. How else could you really be if all you know is what you were taught.  I mean how will you know if Hinduism is good for you if you have been trained and threatened into being an atheist? And is life possible out of any religion?

You then find someone to blame. Because I mean this has to be someone's fault.  Not yours.  Someone else in your life.  Mom. Dad. Grandma. Michael Jackson. Hitler. Jesus. It is so easy to blame others for our outcomes in life; because then it tis not your responsibility to deal with it.  I don't have a job and it is the governments fault, so the government must fix it. Problem is the government isn't bothered about what bothers you, so they will(if they ever do) fix it in their time. Even after your death. 

Your no.1 resolution is to understand that it is nobody's fault.  But your responsibility. Your parents, the most obvious people to affect you greatly in your life did their best and both succeeded and failed.  They succeeded because you are here today and doing socially well.  They may have failed in some aspects which are still your issues, or better yet you failed to understand them. You need to remember that your parents were once children like you; in a time where children didn't question parents.  They were raised with iron fists; and had to make it in that era. They took exactly what they learned and simply transferred all that they believe to be good practise to you. Your life and what you do with it is your sole responsibility.

No.2 direction you could take is knowing yourself.  Unfortunately most of the time to know yourself you need to undo yourself.  Yes.  You need to rid yourself of most of what you know and think it right/wrong.  Painful experience. Getting to know yourself if the best act a human can do, and I believe best way to get even closer to God.  Getting to know you requires you to become aware of yourself.  Aware of how you behave and why, what you like and why, what you don't like and how, etc. Then look at your experiences and decide if you are working out for you; and if you are indeed serving.  The worst person is a broken person who is unaware of their brokenness; but leave trails of broken people everywhere they go.

You can see yourself in those around you.  One of the most greatest universal laws is that you receive what you give out.  Yes all those people around you sense an energy from you; and most times beings reciprocate.  Yes he cheated and left. What did you do? What actions could've moved another person to respond in that way towards you? And why does it hurt so much? All your experiences say a lot about you. And every morning you have another chance to become better.  Know you better. Serve better. Accept better. Love better. Be best.